Monday, March 10, 2025
Clairvoyance & 'Scientific Sight'
Wednesday, March 5, 2025
An Ash Wednesday Prayer (2025)
Peace, all. Here's a prayer. Ash Wednesday. 2025. ~Tom
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Into a void desiring.
You shaped us.
Of laughter.
And of clay.
Still.
Where hate.
Where greed.
Arrive.
Here.
Here.
Is ash.
Boots.
Trample grinding.
To whom.
To where.
To turn.
Monday, March 3, 2025
Dissolution’s Revelation
Peace, All! As Transfiguration has come and gone, and Lent is at hand, I thought I'd share this weird little reflection from the Death book that Matt Holmes and I put together. I hope you dig it.
Peace, Love and Liberation.
~Tom
Image Source: Saint Calixte Catacomb, Third Century
From the time it is foretold, until its end, each person involved in its
life already knows the terrible truth: the fullness of the beauty of bread is never perfectly known until it arrives at the agony of its final hour. It is only then that, being eaten, it dies, giving up its ghost for the life and joy of others.
For this reason, the ancient messianics declared that, among all of the available elements, their godhuman (whom they called the Bread) picked bread as its sign—a tool to point human bodies toward the heavens. For it was there, they believed, that the Bread sat. Mystical and majestic. Its forehead casting beams of light from cushions made of right hands.
The sect also understood that this sign was not a sign alone.
Their communities celebrated the advent of spring with a solemn period dedicated entirely to death. Songs of praise were omitted from worship, replaced with absence or by the sounds of a dirge. Dust was traced onto skin. Garments were torn. And the whole thing concluded with a recitation of the very last words muttered by the Bread on its very last day.
The season itself was prefaced with a story. The Bread ascends a mountain. Arriving at the trail’s end, it is greeted by a cloud who, in reverence, bows down, becoming fog in its humble descent. Lifting its eyes, the cloud is met with a surprise. There, with the Bread, two figures have appeared: the Order Maker and the Agitator of Kings! Ancient men, faces afire, their bodies are left unconsumed, embracing, and overjoyed. A holy convocation. A meeting of faith, space, and time.
Quickly, however, it is revealed that what they had received as intimate joy has, in actuality, been subjected to another’s gaze. The Bread has been followed, its students, voyeurs, in a tizzy, emerging from the weeds.
The earth shakes, as well. Not from fear. But in rhythm with a thunderclap. Arriving as a thief. Breaking windows. Fracturing skies. As the heavens, exposed, are forced to testify. This Bread is Love. This Bread is loved. And this Bread, beloved, is sacred, indeed. At this proclamation, the fog ascends, taking the ancients and the voice with it. The Bread, left alone, sets its face toward the city about which the oracles had foretold.
Here, the reading ends, setting the tone for the weeks to follow, not to be picked up again until the end of the season when at last devotees will find the Bread in that city. Arrested and abused by those who fear leaven, the Bread will be hung high upon a hilltop, no one hiding in the weeds, exposed on purpose, for the whole world to see. It is only then, in the nausea of devastation and in the Bread now broken, that the Bread’s students and friends will finally come to realize who the Bread really was.
Michaelangelo once imagined man, naked and pale, his finger flaccidly drooping toward the Divine—yet, nonetheless approached in its impotence by the outstretched finger of God. After the Bread was gone and the community still remained, this is what began to happen to the bread that they were baking. In its gesturing, their bread was greeted. Not by a nearness producing a gap, one finger not quite touching another. But by a full embrace. An adoration. A cloud bowing down. A fog.
The bread pointed and the Bread pointed back. With a hug. A touch so powerful that it left the bread transformed. Not only in posture or figure. But to the core. So that, there, pointing and embraced, the bread became the Bread itself. Broken, shared, tasted, and seen.
Bread is a sign that is more than a sign. It points. As it points, that toward which it points draws near—so near, that the bread is touched. Touched, it is transformed, becoming the presence of that very thing toward which it had been pointing in the first place. Sharing a meal, recipients of the bread perceive the Bread that is presenced in the bread. This is fleeting as, again, it takes place only at the moment of dissolution. Such is the life of a sacrament. It’s here. And then it’s gone.
There is another sacrament. One that no sect has yet acknowledged. Neither in declarations nor in catechetical instruction. This is not because the sects don’t believe in it—they do—but because their traditions and their hierarchies, for millennia, have preached disdain for the vessel in which it is contained: breath and blood and dry cracked clay.
It was not always this way. The lives of the messianics were once marked by bodies invigorated, revived through spiritual acts of ecstasy, eyes euphoric, backward rolling, joy remaining for days. Wind, spirit, love: these their bodies welcomed in as breath, as smoke, as fire, moaning expulsions, nonsensical cries. Codswallop. Gibberish. Laughter. Glossolalia.
They shared in communistic feasts where each would eat each one’s fill, taking leftovers home for family and for occasional late night snacks. Pleasure and longing took their place at the center of the community. For decades. Here, the body, healthy and well-fed, was celebrated, alive, and unbound.
Then a new generation of leaders arrived. And quickly all of that was buried. The body, they condemned, calling it unkind names. Concupiscent. Cage. The Cause of All That is Wrong! From it, they claimed, no good could arrive.
If a member causes you to sin, cut it off! Cut it off!
If it tempts or if it tests you in any way, throw it away, throw it away!
Toss it, toss it, to the fire, to the flames!
Toss it, toss it, toss it away.
These were the words of their anthem, sung while swinging machetes.
Chopping. Hacking. Scraping. Until the job was done. They swallowed every cord. They left no trace. They made certain no memory would remain. The marriage, nullified. The kid? Cut in half. Body and soul were forever estranged.
Severed from spirit and mind, the body was quickly and easily reduced into a caricature, a cartoon, a sketch—unseen even as it was viewed—subjected to the ignorant, arrogant, and reductive gaze of the ones called theologians. And yet, all the while, the sacrament within it remained. Intact. Buried. But alive.
And so we wonder. What is this Sacrament? Of what is it composed? What is its name? What does it do? How, in us, does it feel? These questions we will explore briefly below.
WHAT IS THIS SACRAMENT? OF WHAT IS IT COMPOSED?
Unlike the Sacrament of Bread that is made and can be touched by human hands, this sacrament simply exists and is only touched from inside of our skin. Like the Bread of the Table, this sacrament is composed of at least two elements, each with its own instincts and personality. Distinct though they are, however, they are also connected. To borrow a theological metaphor, each is a pole that inhabits a sphere. Though, from the surface of one pole, the other may seem foreboding and alien; from a distance, we are able to see that they’re conjoined at the core. They grow from the same earth. They are shaped by the same movements of the same ocean waves.
WHAT IS ITS NAME?
This sphere, in its wholeness, is the sacrament that we now know as the Sacrament of Expectation (or sometimes the Anticipatory Sacrament—the names are used interchangeably). The names of the poles, as you may have guessed, are Anxiety and Hope.
WHAT DOES IT DO?
As noted above, sacraments are signs that point. The Sacrament of Expectation points in at least two ways.
First, the pointing of this sacrament is both future-oriented and emotional. It is felt as a premonition, a hunch, a prayer, a suspicion, an intuition. It is a funny feeling, a what if?, a what about, and so on. It is a feeling of feeling-already that which has not yet taken place. It’s a feeling of feeling already that which the sacrament is gesturing toward. Known among many as a forestate, it’s a feeling that, feeling already, invites the body, in one way or another, to salivate or simply to prepare. Said differently, feeling already that toward which it points, the Sacrament of Expectation gestures toward a future—or, rather, futures: happenings or events that, for now, exist only in potentiality. Lying in wait. It is this multiplicity of futures, commingling in potentiality that complicates this sacrament’s pointing. Also, it is what makes its pointing unique. This uniqueness of pointing is also the source of this sacrament’s second differentiating quality.
Second, unlike other sacraments, this sacrament does not point in one direction, alone. As futures and fate are many and unfixed, the Sacrament of Expectation is unable to fixate. Unlike the bread who only and ever points toward the Bread, and unlike the water who points only toward its Bird (a topic we have not covered here, but which I invite you to investigate), the pointing of this sacrament is multidirectional and a bit more scrambled. This multidirectionality is the source of the sacrament’s considerable emotional impact upon the human body.
HOW, IN US, DOES THIS SACRAMENT FEEL?
As the pointing of the Sacrament of Expectation is less of a pointing and more of a pirouette, it often produces a dizzied sensation. As the body partakes of this dizziness, the elements themselves can begin to drift. Hope and anxiety melt. And they merge. And as they mix, they become much more complex. Hybrid emotions are born, swimming and unpredictable. Just as a great pianist can play three melodies at once, so the body sings in endless emotional symphony. No field of study has produced an adequate name for this state. It is usually described simply as mixed emotions. Other times it is called a state of erosion or overwhelm. Whatever we call it, it is sacred and sacramental.
In these state(s), there emerges in the body an unspoken imperative: With heart, hands, and hair, stand on edge! At attention. Lamps lit and ready. Be prepared! it cries. And then again. And again. But for what? Here is a mystery: neither the body nor the sacrament knows. There is no knowledge. There is only a sense of something unknown.
THE UNPREPARING
There is one exception. If one lives long enough, if the body grows old, ears and nose full of hair, if the spirit becomes tired, if the heart has mellowed or learned to let go, similar changes sometimes take place in the sacrament. The sacrament starts to let go of its spin and to acquire a unique direction. Having sought for so long, it finally finds a focal point. It fixates. And it feels, at last—body, soul, and mind—that future toward which it now points.
In these last days, anticipation is unceasing. A nag. The body that once possessed the sacrament now feels as if it is the one who has been possessed. Perhaps it was this way all along. The former vigilance has departed. There is no preparation to complete. For that toward which the body and that toward which the sacrament has been pointing, arrives.
Holmes, Matthew., Gaulke, Thomas R., Everyday Armageddons: Stories and Reflections on Death, Dying, God, and Waste (Eugene, Oregon: Wipf and Stock Publishers, 2023), 96-101.
Monday, February 24, 2025
God & Mammon Revisted
It’s wholly another thing for a dominant culture or people to claim special status (as did many who colonized continents and continue to attack human rights), oppressing, enslaving, torturing bodies in the name of “at least we’ve civilized ‘these least of these.’ At least we have “saved ‘their’ souls.” Never mind their bodies. Baptizing. In blood, in dogs, by water clouded. Word. Firehose. Into “submission.” “Civilization.” “Domestication.” “Saved” here becomes code for “enslaved.” Incorporation into a system whose God and goal is gold, Mammon, that idol of death that rains down blessings, honor, glory, riches, and might, demanding only, in exchange, human sacrifice.
Tuesday, February 18, 2025
Utopian Surplus: Ernst Bloch's Antifascist Hoping, Part III
Peace, All. Here's a bit more from the hope book. Hope you dig it. -Tom
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Contrary to what Bloch sees as the idealizing (making-static/immobile) impulse in fascist ideologies, Bloch looks back at no Golden Age, but only at dissatisfaction and its struggling hopes and dreams, only at becoming and the dreams that helped bodies to make history become. “Our heritage is the Peasants’ Revolt!” Here we see: he looks back not to go back or to be “great again,” but, rather, in order to hope and dream as the peasants hoped and dreamt, even as we hope and dream anew.Bloch finds in the Exodus, in Jesus, in Joachim of Fiore, in the peasants, and ultimately in Marx, the same impulse: a world where all things are held in common, where each has according to her needs, and where all people are able to eat—and a world where “humanity and nature no longer see each other as strangers,” but as friends. The world will be new—and so will we. We will have become, even as we will still be becoming. Simply put, Bloch’s looking back is looking back in order to dream forward, toward the dream of the classless banquet, which is the resurrection of the body.
It is true: the impulse toward change always runs the risk of going awry. Bloch would be the first to say that the longings of the heart take terrible and even evil turns. Again, he was made a refugee by the heimweh of the Reich. However, not hoping, is an impossible task. Indeed, hope and hunger are what bring the body to life, make life worth living. Though, it seems, the question must be about life for all, not just for me. Said differently, hope must become collective. We must all be looped into one another. Self-preservation (which is willing to sacrifice the other) must become communal and hungry self-extension."
Monday, February 3, 2025
The Cathedral: Ernst Bloch's Antifascist Hoping, Part II
Peace, All. Here's a bit more on Ernst Bloch's hope, taken from An Unpromising Hope. Glad folks are finding it helpful. I'll keep sharing here and there when I get a minute. Much love. Peace. ~Tom
[It is] in Gothic cathedrals that Bloch finds a deep well of surplus hopes and dreams.* In addition to their shape and their presentation of space, these buildings also allude to stories of faith which, although they hold the possibility of being corrupted by fascism, still often hold in themselves the feeling of a certain longing for something which is beyond.
Bloch notes, in a surprisingly polemical fashion, that at the center of a pyramid is a dead person, a lifeless body prepared for the underworld—in other words, at the center of the pyramid is death. This is the god of slave-holding empire. In contrast, Bloch lifts up, at the center of the cathedral, that wherever there is a crucifixion (an image of the right now), there is also the body that is again alive. There is at the center of all of the bloodied bodies, still a glimpse of resurrection. There are vines in the woodwork. There are grapes carved into the altar. In other words, for Bloch, even in static materials, there is the feeling of growth, of liveliness, and of becoming. There is a yearning to live more fully wherever we look. Everything in the cathedral screams the secret desire of those who pray: the body hungers for resurrection. The body wants life. The images of a messiah, the apostolic confession about the resurrection of the body—these are wishful images and ideas, day-dreams that, like music and art, feed hope. Bloch does not need to believe them to find their value. It is not the dogmas, but the hunger for a better life, the Utopian Surplus contained in the art, and the space, and the images, and even the spoken words, that Bloch wishes to imbibe. “The last shall be first” (Matt 20:16; Luke 13:30), “The tyrants shall be torn from their thrones,” “Now the whole group . . . were of one heart and soul, and no one claimed private ownership of any possessions, but everything they owned was held in common. With great power the apostles gave their testimony to the resurrection” (Acts 4:32–35). These holy words are filled with utopian surplus and so they should be tapped for the sake of hope, and for the sake of messianic longings among and within the hungry.
Bloch’s work is very much the product of this activity: mining history, art, theology, mythology, anything he can get his hands on, for Utopian Surplus, for traces of utopia, for residual hope. All of these might be utilized to feed hope and instigate hunger and heimweh today.* Indeed, in all of his encyclopedic tediousness, this is his primary objective: to drill into cultural expressions of generations now deceased, to find in them the sweet syrup that longs for a liberated world, a classless society, something better beyond what currently is, and to pull that syrup to the surface so that it may be tasted and so that it may feed hope, increasing the hunger and the heimweh, that resides within those who dream, or who would dream of a better life and a better world.*
In his digging through German history, for example, in search of a German “heritage of hope,” a task which he held like a heavy weight as he saw fascism rising around him, fascism which claimed that Bloch was no longer German himself, Bloch will comment: “Our German heritage is not Hansel and Gretel!” It is not blood and soil. The true German heritage, if there is one, is obvious: “it is the peasant’s revolt!”* With Müntzer and the peasants, and with Bloch, the poor and the persecuted cry: Omnia sunt communia! This is the heart of Bloch’s revolutionary hope.
Thomas R. Gaulke, "Hope in the Key of Heimweh," An Unpromising Hope: Finding Hope Outside of Promise for an Agnostic Church and for Those of Us Who Find it Hard to Believe (Eugene: Wipf & Stock, 2021), 17-19.
Footnotes
*Bloch, The Spirit of Utopia, 20.
*Bloch, “Man as Possibility,” 65.
*Bloch, The Principle of Hope, 1:236
Thursday, January 30, 2025
Ernst Bloch's Heimweh & Antifascist Hoping
*Bloch, The Principle of Hope, 1:235–36.
*For “scientific racism,” in Nazi Germany, see especially Günther’s notorious work on the “ethnology of the German people.” Günther was praised by Hitler, having been used largely as a basis for the Reich’s eugenics policies. Ludwig Ferdinand Clauss was also a leading contributor to this conversation, claiming distinctions between Germans, Nordics, Arians, and so-called inferior groups. Günther, Rassenkunde des deutschen Volkes; Clauss, Race and Soul.
*For Bloch addressing this directly as “the europic principle,” see Bloch, The Principle of Hope, 1:98–102.
*As mentioned, although Protestantism remained diverse, there were concentrated attempts to erase the Hebrew Bible and the Hebrew origins of Christianity by the state and by self-proclaimed German Christian movements. The Confessing Church formed in distinction to the German Christians (the Deutsche Evangelische Kirche) and, later, the Reich Church, who colluded more directly with the Nazis. Beyond collusion by organizational structures, church members and party members overlapped. Bergen, Twisted Cross.
*Fletcher, The Sin of White Supremacy; Heschel, “Nazifying Christian Theology.”
*Bloch, The Principle of Hope, 2:509, 3:856.
*Remak, Nazi Years, 95–96.
*Of course, this movement was as much a heresy to Marxists as it was to the Confessing Christians—both schools claiming, at their best, fidelity to the crucified and the poor, to those the regime wished to exterminate.